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Hello folks, I’m still in Melbourne :) It’s freezing cold here, especially when the wind blows or should I say howls pass your ears. Brrrrrr. The picture below was taken by my sister. Looks cool and is cool too :D

Okay, ciao.

I’m scared. Scared of the freshmen orientation camp. Will I be able to make friends? I’m very very scared. I’m afraid of the hostel orientation too. I don’t know who my bunkmate is. I’ll be friend-less when I go for the hostel orientation camp.

I’m going off for 13 days :(

Goodbye world!

3 days of camp followed by flying off to Melbourne for 10 days (the next day after the camp ends -_-). GAH. I have no spare shirts at all. Zilch. Hopefully my camp shirts can all be washed, dried and ironed before I fly off.

Going once.

Going twice.

Gone!

There’s a feeling of emptiness inside me.

It’s growing.

And I can’t seem to find a way out of it.

HOORAYYYY.

Just when I thought my essays suck big time, I got a surprise. HIP HIP HOORAYYY.

Oh my god. IDA called me up for an interview XD After the call, I ran home. (Yes yes, ran)

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ I love IDA I love IDA I love IDA. HAHAHAHA. I’m overwhelmed with joy beyond words. Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. But irregardless of whether I’ll be able to secure the scholarship or not, I’m still happy. At the very least, I got shortlisted for the interview. I LOVE IDA. HAHAHAHA. :D

I’m pissed. Really really pissed. Raaarrrrrr.

Jingying, if you’re reading this, drop me a SMS okay? Before you leave for your Russia + North Europe holiday without me (*glares glares glares*), let’s drop by The Coffee Bean at Holland V to relax and read books okay? My Agatha Christie craze is coming back again =D

Was just sitting in a very conspicuous corner of the meeting room folding letters and chucking them into envelopes yesterday. As the name of the room goes, there was a meeting going on at that time. I felt quite suffocated there. Sometimes I wonder if taking a double degree in Business and Computing really is the right path for me. =\

I’m tired. Off to bed now. Haven’t touch my bed at before 12am for a long time. I can’t exactly remember when that was though. Giving tuition tomorrow and the day after. Frankly speaking, I’m not looking forward to it. A straight A student who can’t tutor at all. How funny.  And I’m worried too. Worried that I’ll get raped even though I have neither the looks or the figure. HAHAHA. But yeah, call me a conservative, but I don’t really feel comfortable in a house with guys. Guys who are totally strangers.

Suddenly…. I wish I could just head for the bookshop and start renting tons of books. I’m not exactly an avid reader but it takes things off my mind. And I’m improving (hohoho, I doubt it actually) my vocabulary! Yay (:

Hello mummy.

I’m sticking to my tuition no matter what you think of it and it’s potential implications (health, apparently). SO DON’T BLOODY THINK YOU CAN CHANGE MY MIND BY SAYING YOU’LL GET STRESSED. Seriously, for what? Yes yes, I do skip dinner. But that’s only twice a week. I used to skip dinner EVERY DAY when I was mugging for exams and tests. BUT I KEPT IT A SECRET FROM YOU. And look, I’m fine. Maybe the signs will start to show when I age progressively BUT, I meant it when I say I want to die by 60. I really do, just that everyone takes it as a joke.

Funny eh, no one believes what I say and thinks I’m joking when I’m not. I think jiaying is right. I’m going through my “rebellious age” at 19. How slow. Maybe puberty will kick in a few years down the road =X

Anyway, lim jiaying you’re awesome (: Thanks for helping me see things in a different perspective!

The fact that I’m actually blogging proves that something went wrong again.

I COMMITTED ANOTHER GRAVE MISTAKE FOR THE THIRD TIME. Not once but this is the THIRD time! And it’s such a SIMPLE job yet I’m so INCOMPETENT.

I’m a DISGRACE to my Aunt! (Note: She’s the one who got me this job and besides, she work in the same department as I do) Such a failure in life, aren’t I?

So tomorrow I’ll have to face the music, or should I say the amount of scoldings I’ll have to endure tomorrow. Sometimes, I wish I’m a dishonest sneaky person. Unfortunately GUILT plays a pivotal role.

But, THANK YOU Teo Shi Hua!!! *hugs* Thank you for calling me :) It cheered me up considerably but just that the thought of owning up to my mistake and looking at the irritated faces of the colleagues just make me shudder with fear.

I doubt any of my colleagues will see this since they’re busy and “busy” but, I’m very sorry Kelly, Uncle Tan and Mdm Leong! :( I hope you all will forgive me for all the troubles I brought and thank you for all of your patience! I’m aware that they’re running thin though…

I AM SUCH A COWARD ):

My supervisor got scolded because of ME. Her boss literally raised his voice against her. AND IT’S MY FAULT. But my supervisor said it’s okay. :( :( :( :( :( :(

I wish I can kill myself.

There is someone whom I want to help.

I wanted to help her since last year. But I never took the first step. Now we don’t even see each other. How? Should I take the first step? We are almost akin to strangers anyway. She appears pretty contented with her life as it is. But I sense that deep down she’s not. Pity, sympathy. But that’s not what she wants. Which is why I’m rather hesitant about approaching her.

RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.  And because I’m such a busy working office girl, I shall stop here.