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Was reading a classmate’s blog.

Realised a lot of things I never knew. Hmm… how do I put it? It’s like the cliché saying of looking at a glass that is half-filled with water. I can say for sure that I’ll see it as half empty. But she looks at it as half full :)

I’ve always known that logic but this time it’s different =) After all, she’s the first person whom I know who can really really really look at a glass half-filled with water as half full. Or at least that’s what I feel after reading her latest entry.

And yes Christiana my dear, I do agree with you. I rather have a few good friends than a lot of random friends. Haha. But at least I attempted to salvage this regret that has long been seeded in my heart. But on the other hand, I have to admit that I’m someone who clings on to the past and finds it hard to forget what has happened before… Rawr. Life is complicated, eh?

Now I’m worried about what’s going to happen when I enter university. Will the same things happen again? Will they? And how will I react when I encounter the same problems? By right I’m supposed to “learn from my past experiences” but by left, we never do learn.

Talking about university, I’ve received an invitation to apply for NUS’s University Scholars Programme. Ho ho hum. Frankly speaking, I do want to try for it but I’m rather apprehensive about it. Mainly the interview :( I get nervous very very easily though I often pretend to play cool about it. -__-” And besides, I’m rather undecided about what degree to take.

Just last year, I was rather determined to take Computer Science but now… I’m quite worried actually. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do in future.

Here’s the main reasons why I don’t want to take Computer Science:

1. There’s many outstanding people out there who are gifted and talented. How can I hold up to them? (In case anyone wonders, I’m a perfectionist and I strive to perform my best in everything I do. Naturally, I expect the best results too which explains why often or not, I always get disappointed).
2. Technology is constantly evolving and me being a lazy bum has no wish to keep up with technology. Stupid reason but yes, it’s one of my concerns and it is a major concern!
3. No other girl I knows want to take Computing or Computer Science. Boohoohoo ): Everyone’s off to take Accounting, Business, Economics and blah blah
4. I have other considerations like working in the tourism industry ^^ I like to make people smile. Makes me happy too XD
5. My daddy wants me to take Accounting

[Edit] My mama is evil! Pronounced as e-v-i-l. Yes yes, read my lips. Evil! :( I have to wipe two dressing tables clean (including the dirty disgusting black dust that often lies unsuspectingly behind furniture!) and wrap them in some sticky transparent plastic paper (we’re moving house soon!). Following which, I have to do the same for 3 cupboards and 2 study desks. After that, I have to clean all the rubbish bins in the house. Eeeeew!

I protest! Imagine how much fats I’ll lose! Ah yes, my mass (not weight!) is hovering around 40kg! :( I used to be happy about it but now I’m not. Reason is, I need to buy more jeans. My only two jeans (or 3/4 jeans) are getting lose. One has already fallen below my hips and has to be worn with a belt or else… hmmm. The other is dangerously hanging at my hip level and is about to suffer the same fate as the above. Blah. [/Edit]