I don’t think I’m suited to take Business. I can’t talk. I get scared when I talk to them.
Felt very lost today. I wonder how I will survive 5 days of camp.
Don’t fit in at all. Everyone dresses up in the latest fashion except me of course. Ugh.
Feel like crying. Actually I am already. Really very scared now. :(
And the most embarrassing thing had to happen to me today.
Sorry Joyce, didn’t go for your birthday dinner.
I want a hug :(
I feel like withdrawing out from the camp. I feel like running away. I feel like hiding under my blanket and never step out of my house. I don’t want to go to school. Everything is akin to a hellish nightmare. Like during that few months in JC. But there’s no one now. No one to pull me. Everyone’s gone their own routes, taken their own designated paths.
Ho Qi Yi! Hurry come back from US :( I think you’ve seen my ugly crying face the most number of times.
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July 14th, 2008 at 7:40 pm
Hey, cheer up girl, ppl like me can’t even get in when we want to. :P But anyway, the point is that you got the chance and if that’s what you want then go ahead mix around and make new friends. :) Imagine me going through army with ppl from every part of Singapore. And don’t sweat the clothes, everyone is unique or you’ll learn how to dress up and blend in somehow. I’m sure there are definitely ppl there who are afraid of it as much as you do. Oh die, I think I’m really getting old, talk so much. :P
July 15th, 2008 at 9:28 pm
Yo girl…
Yeah I agree with ???, everyone’s unique. :) Do you still standby the reason when you make the decision? If you do, then I guess it’s worth the effort to conquer these emotions. If not, maybe it’s time to rethink your path? Life to short to get stuck doing the stuffs you hate to do, but again, don’t we all. ;)
Hope you’re feeling better.
July 18th, 2008 at 12:53 pm
hello dearest sun nu er! *sends you a hug from US* im here in US and saddens me to hear what you’re feeling. if i can i’ll take you to disneyland and we can hide in the safe happy walls forever(: but anyway, im scared of what’s gonna happen when i go to hostel in like 1 week’s time? so many uncertainties and all. drop me an email k? let’s email each other so we can keep in touch(: looking forward to your first mail!(: *lots and lots of hugs and kisses* (:
July 18th, 2008 at 11:10 pm
hey guan qun, cheer up! =)firstly, i realli dun tink u ‘can’t talk’! perhaps its psychological, but trust me, u CAN talk, and u can talk very well. juz haf to get over that psychological barrier (stop telling urself that u can’t, becuz u CAN!)
hmm, dun let all that latest fashion etc affect u too much. true friends dun simply look at wad u wear, but really who u are=) i’m sure not ALL the ppl there are so ‘into fashion’ n all tat..n also, i m sure u will be able to find a bunch of good friends in uni! =)
dun worry too much..i guess its juz normal tat all of us will start feeling nervous n worried abt meeting new friends, having a new environment..worrying whether we can fit into this new bunch of ppl, worrying abt lots of things. Its very normal…all of us go through e same emotions.n if u realise, its a cycle tat repeats itself, isnt it? pri sch, sec sch, jc n now uni.(n e older we are, the more things we tend to worry abt=X) But dun worry, everything will be fine, like how u have gone through ur pri, sec n jc, i m sure uni life is gonna be a great one for u too!=D
July 26th, 2008 at 4:07 pm
waiyee!! :D very nice compo.i am sure guanqun will be very touched.hahaha.i am not good with words.esp english ones like you all know.SO GGQ.lets meet up nxt week before sch starts! mei shi jian le!