Why do everyone always assume that I’m bright and cheery just because I’m smiling?
Ever wondered how dark my world can be?
Ever wondered how sensitive I can be?
Ever wondered how hurt I can be simply because of stupid harmless jokes?
Sometimes I don’t understand myself either.
How did I ever managed to counsel people and provide with them emotional support and strength when I myself need those desperately to the extent that I have opted to see a counsellor. I have to admit that it is hilarious when I try to tell them to be positive when I can’t at all.
Singaporean teenagers often blog like the above. (I’m talking about the structure!!) A line per paragraph. I wish I knew why. I still don’t, except that it saves the typist from figuring out how to create a grammatically sound paragraph and yet not deviate from what he (or she) is trying to bring across to the readers. And now for the continuation.
Know what happens when people jokes about my fat cheeks?
I get washed over by feelings of inferiority.
I’ll stare at the mirror when I reached home. And try to push in my cheekbones forcefully.
And cover my cheeks with my fringe despite my grandmama complaining that it looks untidy.
Simple harmless jokes.
Yet they have such impacts.
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December 10th, 2007 at 3:41 am
My fat is my love. It represents my love for food, which is the love of my life.
Yup.
December 10th, 2007 at 12:17 pm
It’s always easier to give advice to someone, than to be in the position of being the person who’s trying to do something with the advice that’s being given. When we give advice to someone, perhaps we’re also hoping that we can use that kind of advice too. It’s difficult to put it in words, but at least that’s how I feel.
I sometimes type one line per paragraph too. :p
December 31st, 2007 at 4:00 am
yo nu er again, again not everyone’s world is as bright as they seem to be. For every bright side they show, there’s always another gloomy side of them they’ll never show unless they cannot take it anymore. And don’t take such jokes to heart, since it’s the way u’re born to be, then accept it and be happy! At times i also do feel that jokes abt mi tiny eyes can be abit too much too, sometimes they even bring me onto the verge of breaking down cuz of too much of poking fun, yea but something u must do is to learn to accept and love urself the way u r, tell urself u love your cheeks just the way they r, u don’t need to change them for anyone else cuz they are beautiful just the way they are, and u must mean it too. Don’t ever let ppl drag you down ya?
January 1st, 2008 at 7:06 pm
wow..i didn’t realise you started blogging already and when i check, there’s already about 5 entries? lol..so fast!
anyway, i guess that’s because you don’t show your inner self to them and because they don’t understand you enough? =x but i guess everybody have a ‘dark’ side..no matter how happy they seem..i can understand why you ask those questions because i do experience them too..hmm..take care!try not to think too much about it..
January 1st, 2008 at 7:37 pm
oh..and erm..i don’t mean to remind you of your cheeks but i really think it’s cute!..and of course not in a bad/ugly way!maybe you should try playing with those programmes where you can change your appearance..if you had smaller cheeks,you may look more ugly!sometimes it’s better your ‘wish’ doesn’t come true..just don’t care about what others say about you..although it’s hard, just try to ignore them because they are probably just jealous of my dear looking so cute!lol..or maybe they are just as bad themselves..don’t be too sad okay?